tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5055598777203654547.post2750172308179616209..comments2024-03-01T06:20:29.087+00:00Comments on qualia and other wildlife: harvest and dark harvestsrosellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00971482422276765335noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5055598777203654547.post-80099790493455172402014-10-06T17:07:45.280+01:002014-10-06T17:07:45.280+01:00Miriam, thank you for being so willing to share op...Miriam, thank you for being so willing to share openly your thoughts here, and it's always good to imagine others' nods of recognition!<br /><br />I'm sorry not to have been able to respond to your previous email, and was also sad to hear about your health issues.<br /><br />BUT what great news that you're writing again, Miriam, and in the swing - and what writer doesn't think now and then 'I'm fooling myself; I'm sure it's no good'?? Par for the course.<br /><br />With love to you both - Rxxrosellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00971482422276765335noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5055598777203654547.post-9481068132866770512014-10-06T14:13:20.750+01:002014-10-06T14:13:20.750+01:00Couldn't be more apposite, Roselle, to what I ...Couldn't be more apposite, Roselle, to what I think about constantly and will eventually end up in my novel, I hope. Today I've been thinking (in relation to Tom and others in TWR, and me of course!) about self-deception: how using the term itself is self-deceiving, in that I don't think I've ever been unaware of deceiving myself and know full well that instinct says – don't do this, no further – and I still say: I know, what the hell, I'll do it anyway, it might just work out in my favour (knowing full well it's not likely to, through this might be with hindsight). That's another thing: hindsight and self-knowledge.<br /><br />Anyway, I particularly recognised this: One's antagonist 'needing to siphon off a bit of your light and vitality.' I fell into that one too with my first marriage and several subsequent so-called 'lovely friendships' which turned out to be poisoned goodies. But then they've been necessary experiences with much learned – the first marriage making the second possible, as you know.<br /><br />On more glittering every-day things, my greed for fresh fruit picked from our own trees, planted and reared by us (though as you know, they demand little rearing, usually) does not always sit well in a sensitive gut like mine! They mean well and tut when I turn up like a greedy child dwarfed by their greater height and wisdom than mine and my wandering hand stays still.<br /><br />I'm writing again – hooray.Tiny steps but it feels good. You'll have something by mid-Nov unless something unforeseen happens. Funny how when writing feels good I wonder – am I deceiving myself? But it doesn't matter, does it.<br />Thanks for communicating all that and providing me with some sense of sharing, community etc.<br />Much love, Miriam.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com